I don’t know how to say this without flooding the Pacific ocean

Some days ago I thought the basic characteristics of being a living thing was , breathing, excreting, moveing, respiration, reproduction etc…. I thought to be human we had to have a heart that feels empathy, sympathy towards one another, but today I found that out to be untrue, there are people out there who are alive, moving they breathe, they excrete, they respirate but I don’t think they feel sympathy nor empathy. Now I know that not all of us do and yet we are humans.

Not all of us do, I guess to be human you don’t really have to have any sympathy or conscience, but now that I look closer even animals have more empathy , I would say animals can’t be compared to humans in some ways based on characteristics, and because they do things irrationally without thought or reason, their primary reason about life is to eat , survive, and reproduce. Today I found that the higher intelligent ‘humans’ are actually lower than ‘animals’

‘Hustle’ i hear that word alot around here, everyone is hustling to have a better life, to live a better life, but when you start to hustle and you forget your rationality, your sympathy, your conscience , and you protect the evil you are doing by saying you are ‘hustling’ then you are NOT , you have just become someone who will do anything to eat, to survive, and you have become even less than an animal.

Someone once said if you pick a stray dog from the street and feed it, care for it, it will not abandon you, do the same for some humans, there is a high chance that they will covert your riches, the little you have, kill you and have it all. Sometimes I feel disgusted when I read the news and I see men assaulting minors, father’s assaulting their daughter, what is this modernity if we lost our conscience we, if we lost our rationality, our love, our sense of right and wrong, what is the use of this technological world if we lose what has sustained us till now, what use is it?

“If having a soul means being able to feel love, loyalty and gratitude, then animals are better off than a lot of humans.”

My heart wrenches when I see the cruelty of today’s world or maybe it has been since yesterday, maybe I just didn’t know, Sons kill their mothers, minors are slaughtered and tortured, we can’t go to school without the fear , our boarding schools are no longer safest, no one is safe, not the children , the women, nor the men, nobody. And truly what a sad thing it is because I thought we were growing, I thought we were developing, becoming strong and better , I thought as time went by things got better not worse, things grew , I failed to see that problems also grow with time and love and conscience fade away with it too.

I would always dream of a new world, not a new planet just a happy well to do one, with love and peace, but a I got a cold awakening today, now my heart feels cold, I can’t feel the warmth I felt before, when I look at the sky at night I don’t see many stars anymore even those I see look dull compared to yesterday, I still smile at all the things that happened yesterday, but the future scares me, it overwhelms me, I hope that those I care for will be happy, more so I hope everyone could be happy and smile but I remember Nagato, and I sigh.

Truly the END is here🚶🏽‍♀️🚶🏽‍♀️