” I knew it……… this wasn’t the first time it was happening. I could feel it, it’s almost like a simulation or lucid dream, as if someone was playing with my mind. Now am sitting and thinking, was it all an illusion, is my brain slowly becoming indifferent to the rest of the real world. I felt like it was something i had forgotten yet i had to remember. At some point, i thought of just forgetting that it ever happened. I said to myself ” i was just hallucinating” but i just couldn’t accept it. I was at war with myself, i just had to remember. Where, how and when did this happen before……… i just had to remember.” I thought to myself 🤔🤔.

Just before it happened, there was this vague sense of familiarity that washed over me as i walked into the room. Just seconds before i turned, i knew that this had happened before and i could predict my next move only a millisecond before it happened.

I sat there in the event hall, my heart throbbing along with the music, and lost my sense of reality. Something clicked. It was in the brisk temperature of the room, the buttery lighting on the stage, the swell of the music–especially in the music. My mind sang, “You know this! You’ve been here before, heard this before!” It couldn’t be; this was the first time I had set foot in this place, the first time I’d heard this piece of music. But the ache of familiarity was so powerful, I began second-guessing those simple facts. The world felt like my earliest memory, like a dream half-remembered. I had the queerest feeling that I’d lived through this moment before…

But then that moment ended, & so did the odd feeling. Shaking my head, I mumbled, “Deja vu.”

This wasn’t the first time it had happened. Am not sure am the only one it happens to, but feeling a sense of uncertainity is not quite enjoyable. I did a little psychological research to be sure i was not going crazy🤪🤪.I was on the very brink of knowing all it is possible to know, but the barrier of impending doom held it at bay. For the briefest of moments, I knew precisely what was to occur, yet could never be certain until the event had taken place. 
Who was I? What had I done? Had I fallen like one of the princes? Had I been born into the land of forgetfulness, and to die like a man?

I somehow knew that it had happened some time before… I was living a moment that had already been lived. Everything was familiar in my eyes. Then in that fleeting moment of familiarity, all that might have been lived before deemed itself brand new.

Am uncertain still unable to figure out why it happens to me….. Or maybe you🤷. So I concluded my mini research and thought to myself, this is certainly familiarization of some sort. I haven’t time travelled and I have certainly not reincarnated, I figured it’s just a little moment or that one sparkle the brain goes through to relief itself of all it’s stress and worries.

We all had something to go through, the quaratine and lockdown saga is surely not comforting. Being alone sometimes Sparks that ugly memory or even the most wonderful one’s. De ja vu is one many Sparks of life in the human brain, you are certainly normal though you are believed to have some spiritual connection or speciality – one thing is we are all special.

The best facts are that, all our disabilities and abilities are what makes us special. What makes you different doesn’t kill rather makes you stronger, special.

Love every part of you. Deja Vu is just a slight cliche of mirrored reality on that part of your brain. You ain’t mad just normal.

I’ll be very excited to hear all about what makes you special and unique.

Forever yours, teenage girl who’s trying to get though life,

Kantierbee 😋❣️.